So, our family is going through a bit of a rough time at the moment, and in my own little way the issues we're tackling are making me ask bigger questions about life in general.
I've always been sort of a cynical guy. I used to really assume the worst, and ask a ton of questions. These days, it's the opposite. I always assume things will work out okay for me because... well... they always have in the past. No matter how naively optimistic I can, I can't pretend that this will always be the case.
But, in an effort to continue the new year's resolution of blogging, I'm going to try to blog even when there's nothing blogworthy to blog about.
We've had some bad news and stressful times in my family lately. We've been incredibly fortunate that our family hasn't really had a lot of trauma or emergencies to deal with, but that means that when these things come up we're relatively unsure how to handle it. I guess we're handling things admirably, but that doesn't mean there's not a general cloud of stress and sadness throughout the family.
Illinois was getting a bit too cold for me, so I jetted off to sunny California to visit my employer for the first time. It only took a few hours for me to go from "I don't know if I can do this job..." to "Yeah, I can totally do this job". In the few weeks since I was hired and given little direction or assistance on how to actually get work done, my brain went to weird places on what the job entailed and how there was no way I was competetant to actually do the work.